I decided to start this blog as a way to organize the jumbled thoughts in my head. I have a great husband, 2 beautiful, smart, funny kids. As much as I love my family, I seem to have lost "me" somewhere. I'm a stay-at-home mom and I'm so thankful that I can be here for my kids and husband. Yet, I've been struggling with my purpose recently. Am I to immerse myself in cooking, cleaning, and caring for my clan and be content with that? Is it too much to want something else? The irony is that I always struggle with balancing family and other activities/obligations when there is something else and then feel that everything is done with just a minimal effort and could have been so much better. Which is the lesser of two evils?
Underlying all the questioning of "my place" on this earth, is an anger that I feel building with each passing day. I'm beginning to realize that I have suppressed things over the years. Is it crazy that I was not aware of this until now (I'm almost 40!). Hey! Maybe I'm having a mid-life crisis! Maybe I don't need to blog about my life....I just need to live the high life and go buy myself a sports car, or does that only work for men?!! Being of the male persuasion has never sounded so good, don't you agree? I'd much rather speed off in a shiny, new Mustang Saleen than deal with all this emotional baggage!
Well, being that I am woman (hear me roar!), I'll be signing back on for another post soon. Unless, of course, I decide to give the car thing a try...then I'll be roaring down the interstate in my Saleen!
